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My subconscious likes to be gainfully employed

I haven't slept for more than a few hours in the last couple nights even though I've had copious amounts of exercise. In the past I would stay awake worrying about work related problems and dwell on how I was going to fix them. Now it seems that in the absence of that work I can find all kinds of new things to keep me awake at night. My college roommate (who is a notoriously bad sleeper) once told me that he stayed awake all night thinking about the quantity of paint it would take to cover an entire train (this amount including the undercarriage and insides of the wheels and what not). I laughed about it then but insomnia is no laughing matter.

My brain did often drift to potential problems with unemployment and even though it wasn't the majority of my sleepless thoughts I think it was the root. Another important event is that about a week ago when I had a little too much to drink I burst into tears over my situation. I normally don't cry like that and I'm not one for self pity but I think it wasn't until my rational, conscious mind was subdued by the alcohol that those feelings buried deep down were able to come out.

In conclusion; it sucks to lose your job. I feel for the hundreds of thousands of other people in the same situation.

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Comments (2)

Dad:

I find that a single Tylenol PM can do wonders for sleeplessness. There's also an amazing device developed by a dear friend of mine which you may have at your disposal, if you can find it, and it still
works. It helps with anxiety and insomnia in many people.

Dan:

Haha I forgot about the painting trains mind loop... If I think about that tonight while trying to sleep I am going to be so mad.

Good luck getting good sleep exercise helps, and reading something slightly boring that doesn't get you thinking to much can help... Start a long novel.

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